Out of The School For a While...

Hi!

So basically the reason why I wanted to write you a post is that I was just back from an outside of the school duty, which was joining an Indonesian debate competition held by Delayota--the nickname for SMAN 8 Yogyakarta--with two fellow students (we were team A) and the seniors as team B. We went there with the representatives for the English debate competition as well.

And there we went from our beloved campus to the outside world *exaggerated*.

But let me tell you the story just before we head out of the school.

So we were preparing in a very crucial rush that I was panicking and I had no idea what I put in the suitcase with my friends. We were running out of time that we used to find and search for materials for the debate and as the result, we were so confused of what to do.

And I was just putting on my tie just before I left in my dorm's study room. I was standing there when there was this thing I thought was a big wind that made all the furnitures moved. Even the tables. I was very calm (too calm, actually) but then I started to wonder, how could wind make the tables shook? And then the idea of earthquake popped in my mind. But the weird thing was, I wasn't really reacting to my mind. I was just like, 'Oh, it's an earthquake.' and I calmly continued putting my tie on. I saw my teachers and seniors running to the garden of Cempaka--my dorm--and I knew that my thought was right. But once again, I was just like 'Oh, ok. It's an earthquake.' suddenly it hit me. 'IT'S EARTHQUAKE!' then I rushed to the garden as well. A bit stupid and idiotic, I know. Shame.

After being so hysterical about the big earthquake that was big enough to make us all dizzy, we all headed to the bus, making ourselves comfortable and prayed for the success of the TN teams. I was pretty much in blue, I had no idea why at that time when we were all worried about the earthquake, I wanted to see his face before I left. But no, I didn't get to see him. But I enjoyed the ride eventually hehe. We would go to Yogyakarta yaaay!

In the whole ride I was asleep and I didn't remember of the journey much but I do remember the time when the seniors suddenly laughed at me when I woke up and turned out I was asleep in a very unique position which was VERY embarrassing! My face went all red and I felt like burying myself to death. Then after waking up fully, I read the materials once again.

I sometimes had convos with everyone but I was really nervous since it was my first Indonesian parliamentary debate competition!

And we went on debating for the total of five rounds (three prelims. a semifinal round, and one final round) in two days and it was E-X-H-A-U-S-T-I-N-G. DUH. But I was also excited about it because we managed to get to the final challenging our seniors in our first experience of debating.

We found so many competitive competitions there. The competitors were so qualified and we were struggling to find a way to win each round. But in the last round, which was versus the seniors, we were so panicked that we messed things up that made us ended up being the second place.

But overall, we felt so proud, happy and grateful for being able to make people we love proud. And wish us luck so we can do better next time.

Since we won the contests (placing first and second in Indonesian debate contest + placing first in English debate contest), we begged [LITERALLY BEGGED] Pak Isna, Pak Agung, and Pak Pebri to let us hang out for a while, we set very good arguments that made the teachers changed their minds of going back to TN immediately.

We went to Ambarrukmo Plaza where we all went to Gramedia, the bookstore and I bought materials for my duty. We also ate together in the food court. It was fun sharing food, experience, and also stories with the seniors, They were also very welcoming toward us the tenth grade and I felt so happy for it.

And we finally went back to campus at eight pm, bringing souvenirs for our friends and seniors. The great thing is the souvenirs were treats from Dhaifan's mom and sister. We were so happy and grateful for her generosity but we also felt uncomfortable for giving her too much burden.

At last, we all walked proudly toward the dorm, feeling so awesome for winning the contests. We love it!

Thank you for all the prayers and supports given by you to us. Thank you also for the awesome outside duty, all! Hope we can go on duty together again and have fun together, both for TNESC and Independen <3

[NB: The pictures will be posted soon so don't miss them!]

Hugs, kisses, and love,

-Abigail Gee

What I Miss About Being A Middle Schooler

Um, recently I've been thinking of my life before TN, when I was still in middle school. I looked at old pictures of me and my friends and I miss them so much. I wonder how they've been now. All I can do is pray for the best. So here are some pictures of me and my friends that make me miss them so much, both from SMP Negeri 1 Denpasar and SMP Negeri 1 Balikpapan. Enjoy!

Guess that's all for now. Gonna post some more exciting posts later about my high school life. Hope you guys like them!

Love,

-Abigail Gee

Impossible

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IMPOSSIBLE

I remember years ago

Someone told me I should take

Caution when it comes to love

I did

And you were strong and I was not

My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot

I did

And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now

Shout it from the roof tops

Write it on the sky line

All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open

Tell them what I hoped would be

Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard

Falling for betrayal is worse

Broken trust and broken hearts

I know, I know...

Thinking all you need is there

Building faith on love and words

Empty promises will wear

I know, I know...

And now when all is done

There is nothing to say

And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now

Shout it from the roof tops

Write it on the sky line

All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy

And my heart is broken

All my scars are open

Tell them what I hoped would be

Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible

I remember years ago

Someone told me I should take

Caution when it comes to love

I did

Tell them all I know now

Shout it from the roof tops

Write it on the sky line

All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy

And my heart is broken

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, hoped would be

Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible

Happy Birthday, Mesa!

Hi, everyone!
It's been five months since the last time I posted stuff, eh? I'm sorry. I've been so busy with being a freshman in a very very awesome school called Taruna Nusantara, which the pictures of my activity will be posted later, and I couldn't even talk to my parents for months. But now it's all paid off!

This post is meant for one of the most special people in my life and heart. Yes, my brother, Mesa! He's having his birthday today and I can't even call him. Maybe I'll try calling him. Yes, I now go to a boarding school which requires me to live in a campus and have my holiday twice a year.But no, I don't suffer. I love my new school! You should check it out sometimes. Anyway, here are some pictures of my beloved brother. Enjoy!

-Abigail Gee

Moving On

Hi, Randoms!
I've been so messed up lately like so duh. And this is the post I've owed one of my good friends from ages.

Moving on huh? A very sensitive topic yet it's so common in teenage lives of ours. When we try to get over the feelings we have for someone. Most people believe that moving on means liking someone else.

WRONG. Moving on isn't like that. Moving on simply means walking away, not moving from a pit stop to another.

You don't need to like other people just to overcome the sadness and forget the feelings for this special one. There's only one thing you need to do; embrace it.

Most people can't do this, because they're too scared of being hurt again. And the reasons why are various; they like people who don't like them back, they just broke up with the people they love, and so on. They think they've felt it all and they don't want to feel those flashbacks and stuff. But they're also suffering from the pain of being stuck in the same position.

If you're being logical, which one will you choose; being hurt for days, weeks, even months seeing that person being happy without you or with somebody else; or feeling a massive pain just for a moment but then you'll feel free and happier after that?

Here are simple tips from me :
1. Notice this; moving on doesn't mean you need to forget all your feelings or hate the person. Embrace the new beginning with arms and heart wide open. Try to let go slowly and don't hesitate in the middle
2. In some cases, people can't really move on seeing pictures or songs which remind them of their loved ones. If you feel like they aren't bothering then keep them just for memories. But if you can't move on because of them, you better delete or throw them away. It might hurt but actually works
3. Make yourself as busy as possible, doing things useful and don't let yourself think about them. Having a plenty of spare time can cause you thinking of them again.
4. Cheer yourself up. Eat your favorite food, do your favorite activities, watch some movies, hang out with close friends, shop, and do anything that makes you happy. Life is not all about love, heartbreaks, and romance. It's also about doing things that you like. Don't let yourself drown in sadness and pain. Remember; the best revenge is to show them how happy you are without them!
5. Convince yourself; this part doesn't mean you need to be playboys/girls. But to cheer yourself up and have fun with checking out girls and guys. Just a reminder; they're not the only ones for you. If they don't put any effort to keep you, then you don't deserve them.
6. Think about yourself. They're NOT the center of your world, although now they seem to be. But NO. There are more important things to think. Your future and your family. They're not the one who decide what you're going to be. Don't waste your time thinking about things which have passed. You still have a loooooong way to go ahead. Your adventure's not over just because you lose them.
7. Repeat this mantra : "Maybe I don't like him/her anymore." and smile after saying this sentence.

Okay, I know my tips sound cliche, but to be honest I managed to move on from guys by doing these things. I'm not that kind of person who easily falls for someone. And once I fall for someone, the feeling lasts for a long time and it WAS VERY HARD to let go of the feelings. But I keep repeating all the things I wrote and I did it.

I was in a very very massive pain in the process, but now I feel relieved. I feel free. I feel great. I feel heroic for saving myself from a long-lasting pain.

I hope all these steps work for you. They will, if you're willing to do them as well.

May your life be happy and beautiful, peeps!

-Abigail Gee