The Common Thing between Me & Denise

Hi there, everyone!
I've been so busy at school (though I sometimes still keep my Facebook updated hehe) that I had no enough time to actually post something. But trust me, I've been dying to write you readers, if you ever exist, something.

So here it goes.

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This is the story of Denise.

[Denise]

The story began somewhere in October, where I failed doing something and then someone came to me and offered me a new point of view and this someone really did open my eyes, abut how I shouldn't waste my time regretting things and start fresh, that there were still many other options to choose from, and my life didn't end as I failed.

Then I fell for that person ever since.

I couldn't meet him everyday and when we met I couldn't do anything about it. He smiled to me that day, the day when I finally got something that not only me, but all of my fellow students had been seeking for months. That afternoon, we were all running chasing seniors. Then after hugging a senior, I saw him. With his dirty face, clothes, and naked feet. It was like the world  around us just blurred and the time just stopped. He was looking at me and I looked at him back. Then he smiled and said, "Semangat ya!" [Indonesian for 'Keep your spirit up!']. I was blushed but I could only smile and said, "Thanks!' and chased another senior. It was just, perfect.

I don't know. I would like to tell you that only. To show that it actually stays in my heart as something special, that it has its own place there. That I will always remember that little moment when he actually smiled to me.

And maybe, just maybe, he might answer all the questions in my head. Maybe with a yes or with a no, I don't know. What's most important is my feeling towards him can stay, not how he would actually respond to me.

Thank you for being in my life for once, colouring it in a temporary moment, giving new perspectives to look from, caring for me whenever I need to, giving me the attention that I crave for sometimes, but still keeping me awake that I need to keep landing my feet on the ground.

I love how he makes every conversation sound dreamy but keeps things real at the same time.

[Interviewer]

So do you still like him?

[Denise]

Honestly, I don't know. Maybe I'll just relax, sit down, and enjoy the movie while it lasts. Then when it comes to the credit, I'll make sure of it.

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Ok so I don't know what I just wrote but it just ran through my brain so smoothly. But I hoep you like this shortie. I'll post you something real later okay? This is just a random piece stuck in my brain that forces me to let it be read by you.

Stay reading!

-Abigail Gee

Scary Night Shots!

I know I should've posted something sweet and lovely since it's almost Valentines and given advice of romance and stuff but since I have no one to think about or anything romantic to celebrate so I'll post scary things. Doesn't Halloween on Valentine's Day sound good, especially for single people like me? *coughs*

So when I was 13, I took some pictures using my Dad's handycam and I found this weird mode called 'Nightshot'. I know, I was pretty much blind about technology and I tried to take pictures in Nightshot mode and all of the pictures looked SCARY. So here are a few random photos taken that day. Enjoy the fright :)

don't my eyes look scary?

she. looks. scary. as. hell.

this is the scary part of 13 year-old me

*run*

Ok, so the last picture was really really scary. That's Bi Meng by the way, in case you're wondering who that is. So I hope you don't have nightmares because of the shots and you still visit my blog (though I'm pretty sure only a few human beings really visit my blog and read my random posts). Happy Bloody Valentine's Day for those who are lucky enough to celebrate it.

Sincerely the lonely random,

-Abigail Gee

Being Bullied?

Hi!
I've been feeling really stressed out and blue lately that I don't know how to express it. People seemed to be so judgemental nowadays. So I kept being bullied in the class, being hated by some people, made fun by some random boys at school, doubted by teachers, disliked by the seniors, unloved by surroundings. And the worst part was, I'm away from my parents so I have no place to shelter.

But then I started to realize a few things that I never thought of before.

1. Not everybody likes you. Not everybody will accept you for who you are and become your friends. Not everybody will welcome you when you suddenly join in a group or forum, but not everybody hates you either. Everything always has two sides; positive or negative, good or bad, loved or hated, liked or disliked, anything. There will always be some kind of comparisons to what happens in your life, you know?

2. It's you who makes yourself burdened. If you try to let go all those painful things you'll realize that since the start they weren't pains at all. Pretend that those people who hate you are just little rocks blocking your way. You just need to jump to realize that they're just small obstacles and by jumping that means you'll go further than them. As long as you still love yourself, you've got nothing to be worried about.

3. Think of things in different perspectives. Stop thinking about something in one way only. Let's make an analogy for it. Pretend that you haven't eaten because your mom is so busy that she can't cook you meals and you feel sad, angry, and pissed off with her because you think that she doesn't love you and nobody's home who cares enough to make you food. But being mad at your mom won't make your stomach filled with food right? So instead of blaming things on your mom, why don't you cook meals for yourself? It's just as simple as that. So if someone doesn't like you, why don't you find someone else to hang out with? Besides, it adds great positive points because that means you're widening your area of socialization.

4. It's not how to please them so they'll like you, it's basically how to show them that you're great in some way. DON'T EVER try to please others. You weren't born to make them happy or so they accept you. No. All you can do is to show that you're fine without them and they don't matter to you.

5. Remember this mantra : if people around you try to bring you down, that means you're above them all. You actually win the game but you keep thinking about how you should look good in front of them and to make them pleased more than to be satisfied of what you achieve. If they still mock you, remember, you deserve better friends. There's plenty of fish in the sea phrase doesn't only be applied in your romance life, but also in your social life. If these 'friends' don't work, you can still find better people in this world.

Thinking of these things, really helped me getting through my hard times. Now, my friends stopped making fun of me and everything slowly went to normal. Hope some of this piece of mind helps you as well. Remember, you were born to be loved by at least one special person.

Good night!

-Abigail Gee

The Delayota Adventure Proofs

So as I promised, I'd like to share some pictures of the team winning the trophies and we finally found some on the school's website.

But I felt too lazy to copy and save all the pictures so for instance, I'll just copy the link to the pictures and you may see them for yourself. Enjoy :)

P.S: Sorry :(

Link : Juara Debat Bahasa Inggris dan Bahasa Indonesia SMAN 8 Yogyakarta

Love,

-Abigail Gee

Out of The School For a While...

Hi!

So basically the reason why I wanted to write you a post is that I was just back from an outside of the school duty, which was joining an Indonesian debate competition held by Delayota--the nickname for SMAN 8 Yogyakarta--with two fellow students (we were team A) and the seniors as team B. We went there with the representatives for the English debate competition as well.

And there we went from our beloved campus to the outside world *exaggerated*.

But let me tell you the story just before we head out of the school.

So we were preparing in a very crucial rush that I was panicking and I had no idea what I put in the suitcase with my friends. We were running out of time that we used to find and search for materials for the debate and as the result, we were so confused of what to do.

And I was just putting on my tie just before I left in my dorm's study room. I was standing there when there was this thing I thought was a big wind that made all the furnitures moved. Even the tables. I was very calm (too calm, actually) but then I started to wonder, how could wind make the tables shook? And then the idea of earthquake popped in my mind. But the weird thing was, I wasn't really reacting to my mind. I was just like, 'Oh, it's an earthquake.' and I calmly continued putting my tie on. I saw my teachers and seniors running to the garden of Cempaka--my dorm--and I knew that my thought was right. But once again, I was just like 'Oh, ok. It's an earthquake.' suddenly it hit me. 'IT'S EARTHQUAKE!' then I rushed to the garden as well. A bit stupid and idiotic, I know. Shame.

After being so hysterical about the big earthquake that was big enough to make us all dizzy, we all headed to the bus, making ourselves comfortable and prayed for the success of the TN teams. I was pretty much in blue, I had no idea why at that time when we were all worried about the earthquake, I wanted to see his face before I left. But no, I didn't get to see him. But I enjoyed the ride eventually hehe. We would go to Yogyakarta yaaay!

In the whole ride I was asleep and I didn't remember of the journey much but I do remember the time when the seniors suddenly laughed at me when I woke up and turned out I was asleep in a very unique position which was VERY embarrassing! My face went all red and I felt like burying myself to death. Then after waking up fully, I read the materials once again.

I sometimes had convos with everyone but I was really nervous since it was my first Indonesian parliamentary debate competition!

And we went on debating for the total of five rounds (three prelims. a semifinal round, and one final round) in two days and it was E-X-H-A-U-S-T-I-N-G. DUH. But I was also excited about it because we managed to get to the final challenging our seniors in our first experience of debating.

We found so many competitive competitions there. The competitors were so qualified and we were struggling to find a way to win each round. But in the last round, which was versus the seniors, we were so panicked that we messed things up that made us ended up being the second place.

But overall, we felt so proud, happy and grateful for being able to make people we love proud. And wish us luck so we can do better next time.

Since we won the contests (placing first and second in Indonesian debate contest + placing first in English debate contest), we begged [LITERALLY BEGGED] Pak Isna, Pak Agung, and Pak Pebri to let us hang out for a while, we set very good arguments that made the teachers changed their minds of going back to TN immediately.

We went to Ambarrukmo Plaza where we all went to Gramedia, the bookstore and I bought materials for my duty. We also ate together in the food court. It was fun sharing food, experience, and also stories with the seniors, They were also very welcoming toward us the tenth grade and I felt so happy for it.

And we finally went back to campus at eight pm, bringing souvenirs for our friends and seniors. The great thing is the souvenirs were treats from Dhaifan's mom and sister. We were so happy and grateful for her generosity but we also felt uncomfortable for giving her too much burden.

At last, we all walked proudly toward the dorm, feeling so awesome for winning the contests. We love it!

Thank you for all the prayers and supports given by you to us. Thank you also for the awesome outside duty, all! Hope we can go on duty together again and have fun together, both for TNESC and Independen <3

[NB: The pictures will be posted soon so don't miss them!]

Hugs, kisses, and love,

-Abigail Gee